I am not blogging about 21st Century Breakdown.

I'm sorry, but I'm sick of hearing about it. I haven't listened to it yet, I will in my own time, but right now I'm fed up of it!

Wow, two entries in the same month? Sacre Bleu! I MUST be inspired. Or angry. Or bored. Who cares I'm glad about it.
It's summer.. it actually is. I can go have a smoke outside and not freeze and I can wear sunglasses and cut-off shorts. It's amazing. As the seasons have rotated full circle, so has my life and my relationships. I'm so happy to be without conflict. I am not a person who likes drama. I know some girls who just create it out of thin air; they thrive on having something to complain about or someone to blame their problems on or an argument that they cannot resolve. I'm the opposite. Arguing physically hurts me, blaming people makes me feel guilty and complaining just makes me even angrier. I need to vent as much as the next person [hence this blog] but there has to be a line drawn somewhere. I yearn for... not a "quiet" life but one where people get along and there isnt awkwardness and there isn't a history of conflict between people that cannot be let drop. I asked a good friend earlier why everyone in my life can't be happy at the same time, just once. The reply was that life wouldn't be as interesting. I guess that's true but I'd still like to see what it's like. I give everyone a chance to make amends and apologise, even if they've hurt me more than even they know, if it's a friend or a guy in my life. Maybe I'm a walkover, who knows. I think I'd rather be a bit of a walkover than lose people who genuinely want to say sorry. So long as they know that I won't let it happen again, I don't see the problem.

Maybe it's all to do with my confidence. As I mentioned in the last entry, my self-esteem is gone. I don't know what's happened but I've regained this shyness that I had in secondary school. It's awful. I was sure this part of my life was behind me, but I guess it was just hidden. I can't argue my points properly because I'm sure the other person's probably right- and for someone who wants to be a journalist, this is not good. I'm convinced that no matter what I think I'm good at, someone else is 100 times better than me, so what's the point? With regard to my physical features, I can't look in the mirror anymore and I've become obsessed with beauty products to an unhealthy level, I know it's not right but I can't stop myself. Worst of all is when I eat something it comes with an overwhelming guilt afterwards. I thought I was over this, I really did.

Fuck, this was a lot heavier than I intended so I think it's time to switch gears to the music. I think for a change I'll list five songs that I've been obsessed with lately, not all are recent releases, but they're all amazing.

1. Tie Me Up With Jackets- Fight Like Apes- This song is the one that turned my interest in Fight Like Apes from passing curiousity to obsession. The melody, the breakdown, the lyrics.. everything.
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2. Black Eyes- Gallows
So I may have gotten a sneak preview of this album when I was working at Rock Sound, and this was definitely the stand-out track. Frank Carter's opening lines are simultaneously sexy, hearfelt and full of rage. This would not get out of my head.
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3.Kiss The Bottle- Lucero
I got into Lucero through a recommendation on this very blog [thanks, whoever you are!], and I had a big fondness for Jawbreaker already. Although the Jawbreaker original is perfect, this acoustic cover demonstrates exactly why, sometimes, when the lyrics are good enough, the instruments should be stripped down and the lyrics allowed to speak for themselves.
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4 Oh, There's Legwork- None More Black
In short, this song maybe the catchiest thing you've heard for years. In full, they lyrics are beautiful, the chorus is infectious, the message is profound and the whole song deserves to be on repeat.
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5. I Got Love- The King Blues
Ok so this isn't something Ive lately been obsessed over, but I was shopping the other week and this came on over the speakers, and I ended up dancing out of there. Have you ever heard anything so positive?
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Later skaters
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